psychology of a boy who’s a girl

wrote a blog, tricky one discussing girl/boy traits. 

But today I am transgender, but would I be tomorrow? 

Well, let’s extrapolate;

women fought for votes, women fought to wear trousers, women ate fighting for equal pay and equal opportunities. 
so, in a world where women go to work and men stay at home, caring for children and cleaning, beautifying themselves. 

Yes, that would be a somewhat comforting world, but then, I like car racing, wrestling, Roller Derby, I like watching women play sports. I like to imagine I’m the woman running fast and scoring goals. 

When I throw I throw like a girl, I don’t have the strength to win at shot put, but when I skim stones I do well, because my body is supine. 

At school P:E lessons were football and when a slim young boy that I was is faced with a 6 foot, muscular guy bearing down the pitch, well I just stood aside. 

I don’t mind if people think I’m a boy or a girl, I want to be me. I don’t identify with male roles presented by society, but I do identify with female roles. 
I can sew, knit, program a computer

I can clean, excercise, drive a car

explore space, make up my face

I can do all these things by following female role models;
Beth Healey, Izzy Lindqwister, Diana Junksista, Sabine Schmitz, Siobhan Reddy xx


Love Haipney

Finding a half pence

let’s away to the shop, 

let’s go out and spend it

I would like to taste, 

one of your, fruit salad chews

I’ll just sit and chew

dreaming the whole day through

catching the dust specks through the sunlit window. 

playing with my cars, beach buggy, hovercraft, yellow dumper t truck

my Grandma has, plastic cups

but they’re so bright and sspotty

dream the day away

catching dust through the ssunlit window

smell the shake and vac

build a hut outside out’ve old bits of wood

yes I failed, but the endeavour felt good 

now I sit and I hold on to my thoughts 

like a cc com comfort blanket

rest me in my early morning reprieve 

specks of dust through a ssunlit wwindow

and as The Monkees say; Daydream believe 


what cars do women like.. . 

of course, with the advent of social media and with so many voices, I’ll be castigated for whatever I write. 

Also, I think that womanhood can be desperately varied. 
so what I write is purely personal and not wanting to pigeon hole women, neither would I want to pigeon hole men, but it is good we can discuss such things. 
When I helped out in childrenswear at work, standing as a transgender m2f, with a group of women amd they ask what car is good, there  is only 1 correct answer! but would my answer be the “correct  answer, in order to seal my solidarity with the womanhood? Well, I gave the answer with honesty, Audi, met with agreeable comments. 
Why would Audi be aWoman’s car? should the car be gendered by us in this way? 
Audi are engineers, so we feel that the car would be reliable. They’re economical. for me is the drive and Audi and Citroën can take the bends in the road, in a drag race maybe they lose out a little, but for handling they both punch above their weights. 
I guess they’re not “Womens Cars” per se, but they are preferred by women who appreciate cars, but feel underrepresented by the motorhead fraternity, which paints masculinity with power and lack of need for control of that power. 
good engineering and good car manafacture is a multi faceted design and need area, 
I don’t know if women can or should have a car preference but Audi and Citroën both offer something that motorheads seem happy to ignore. 
When young I liked cars, my fav toys wrre a magenta beach buggy with a flower on the bonnet & a tonka truck xx different cars do different jobs 🙂 

Anti anti democracy

Who cares if I frustrate, if you hate me or despise me.

Who cares if you throw insults attempting to deride me.

I’ve been on the outside for such a long time, having to live with societies pious trite crimes.

When I was eight you were threatening Star Wars, Had to wait for half a decade for a computer game “Balance of power”, to stave against you bores. In 83 you plunged us go-gaddedly into war, later on you were happy to denounce terrorists…. Oh but wait only those who disagreed your lore.

A woman prime minister promoting women as ogle material, you are supile vampiristic, decrepit overtures.

Food bank queues and arthritis in a fourteen year old whose parents couldn’t afford them new shoes, I was bullied for how others voted, for how others felt, I only accept the life lead a suffering governmental child abuse.

I do not accept you, you are not my friends, and through ignorance your ears you never would to me lend.

You are thick pig headed, purile sapphoristic, I could only hope, wish and pray to achieve radioactive verse to direct at you ballistic.

You Don’t even count my vote, you’re nasty repugnant misfits, imposing a way after life resulting in 76% of the population viewing you an afterthought, the most powerful people in the land are on dragons den the disgusting ignorant disprasic. Spivs. 

Free market is the cry, the cry of the free market; privateer, an excuse to ignore the populace, to invoke slavery via prerogative

Waste my money and then demand more, you are King John from the Tales of Robin hood, you are tales of depravity from days of yore.

I stand against you for all my days, for you would take what precious little we have and then raze, our country with fracking scars, our living standards, our humanity, you kick the disabled, you are depravity of the soul, insipidly unproductive hyperbole.

The Bad Apple

1993 Apple took Atari to court over OS similarities, lost, but bankrupted Atari in the process, Atari ST web browser CAB (Crystal Atari Browser) migrated to Mac and became “iCAB”, the first time for the “i” appearing before product.

Circa 2014 Apple take Samsung to court over OS similarities….. lost again I believe.

Apple were the original “Alt right”, they are not an ethically minded company, using Ireland to make components up, then moving on to Asian countries (Philippines I believe), and then BBC’s Panorama showing a factory where Apple products are being made, and a worker faints due to poor working conditions.

Can we not move on? Can we not “Take back control” Do we really need to pay homage to the Bad, the Bad and the Ugly of American commercialism, it seems we do, it would seem that brexiteer or remainers alike, The British people, who “Love their country so dearly”, who are so “Patriotic” feel it their duty to ignore and destroy anything British or successful.

I won’t visit iTunes, you can’t make me!