raging against the man machine

Getting heckled by people passing in a car…..

I’m not gonna say that it doesn’t hurt me at all, I’m not immune, I’m not bullet proof, but that isn’t the point the point is that society shouldn’t be this way, couple that with

See women proclaim that we’re not like them! Because we’re not cisgendered, then they go on to tell us how we feel and why we do what we do! Because…. Because all women know exactly how all women feel & all women know how all men feel!!!!! In fact women just know everything and they have no shame in speaking about it :Hold up: wait, relent, what about the lovley women, what about the women I know who don’t speak up, the meek women, the smart women who feel that there must be something more, Well I know a few of them, but they’re really very special, (You’re so very special, I wish I was special, well, learning now to love myself and not to think of myself as a creep).

Worse than this, sometimes women like a man in a dress šŸ˜® yep, absoloutly I can tell you 100% there are women who like girly men, but they don’t speak up, they are bullied by other women, they are told they should be liking big strong butch men, but they don’t, they like feminine men, but they are scared to say it.
Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity
Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity
Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity
Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity

Dressing in the name of

Now you do what they told ya
now you do what they told ya
Will you do what they told ya?
now you’re out of control

justified
If only you feel part of a tribe
justified
to livin’ your life in freedom,
Come on

Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity
Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity
Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity
Some of those that preach equality
They won’t celebrate femininity

Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me
Fuck them I won’t do what they told me

Justified
I must defy
My femininity inside
Must not be denied

Bom bom bom bom bom bom.

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I’ve got to be free

Nervous and unsure, heart thumping in my chest cavity

a souless echoing drum, unbidden uneasy rythm

tell me stories of crystal tips

tell me about flowers in the sky

tell me I neither have to be a bad bitch

but also not that mythical macho guy

Hold my hand and tell me the world’s not a bad place, because I have trouble seeing it

Take me someplace else where I can just exist without suffering it

When I was eight I was getting it, nervous tension

They fed me placebo, peppermints

I crumbled inside and survived, only by hiding from the world outside

I had no idea how to live this life

Missed the point, of enjoying myself

I tried to be how life needed me to be

but for my own sake, I was failing miserably

So glad I’m not in that skin

thrown the cancerous poison in the bin

and seeing life clearly

and I appreciate you so dearly

cos you’re with me

letting meĀ be free

xx

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The howling

Watching the dust, pretty in the sunlight, and as I grasp, it’s gone, impossible to catch

my long golden hair incongruent with what I’m allowed to be
Can I buy the Smurfs record Mummy & later I want a Smurf bag too please
I want to play tea, party
Skipping rope games, rhyming is for me
painting a sunshine vista on the window
sewing embroidery onto a pillow
all my actions killed or lost
suffocated by those who demand I be grateful
denied by those who proclaim “Opportunity”
Not my own incongruence
But their ignorance and stupidity to be broken
She is within me now
The Banshee, has awoken

The problem is

It’s not that I can’t believe that somebody might like me. It’s not about acceptance, per se.

If a woman walks down the street in a miniskirt then she may get raped, indeed she is then victimised. If a man walks down the street in a miniskirt then he is every bit as likely to be raped/sexually assaulted, but more than that, stared at, shouted at, in fact treated as a joke.

But the problem is the same and it has very little to do with being a woman.

It has to do with attitudes 7 this is where it gets creepy.

Women still take on more responsibility as carers for small children. Children grow up, some boys grow up with sexist values. where did the boys get the sexist values from? well I can tell you that women are deeply sexist…

I can tell you that I have grown my hair long and worked in a women’s section, surrounded by women. I have recieved about equal sexism from both men and women. There is a difference, men are often more shy to express themselves, they’ll laugh, look away/avoid eye contact, act uncomfortable.

women seem to have no shame whatsoever, be their attitude positive/supportive, or dismissive, down to being insulting? oh yes absolutley…

Dr.Who, nay, dr.Doo

Watched the latest episode of Dr.Who, there’s good and there’s bad.

The deaf character! Yes!!! And then they showed her “Hearing an axe being scraped accross the floor” via a soundscape! YES! Yes! Yes! F&^K Yes! I have been waiting 20 years for this sort of thinking, jeez people are incredibly slow to catch up, and worth saying… they really just minimilised the thing, one scene! just one scene!! huh?!

Then… The Doctor suggesting that he wrote Mozarts symphony…… and we’re just trying to look somewhere else… the sunglasses were bad enough, but to dig up a dead person from the past, and then to discredit that person? :Aghast: Doctor Who has sunk to an all time low… very disturbing, WTF would you dig up somebody from the past in order to discredit them?!?!?!?!?!

They did it in voyager, which was a pile of S%^t production, they brough Leanardo DiĀ Vinci back as a hologram and then proceeded to have Captain Cathryn Janeawy condesendingly tell Leanoardo Di Vinci where he was wrong in his thinking!!!???!?!?!?!?

What The Actual Fuck?????

Why??????

To prove what???

Fucking sad programming, really absolute disturbed precedent.

Unforgivable, 100% unforgivable.

Why dig somebody from the past, who can’t defend themselves in order to discredit/patronise them???????